I need space
and time to heal all
my self-destructive decisions
of the past, not so long ago.
I’ve helped everyone else,
It’s time I help myself.
I’ve been lost and detached from that
girl who is alive, she smiled, laughed and had a sparkle in her eyes
It’s been many years, I am ready to go find her again.
You helped me smile again.
Thank you for your kindness.
Truth is, I fell in love with you.
That winter morning in my room, we held each other
like we were holding onto something real, tangible
I felt trust, and nothing
else mattered in that moment.
Truth is, I love you, for you.
Unconditionally.
Truth is, I don’t know if you will ever have
the courage to open yourself to love me
and let me in the real you.
I am heart-broken.
My heart needs to be band-aided
through laughter, best friends and the ocean.
It’s the only way I know how to forget for a little while.
That’s why I need to go.